You’re Still Here?

FWIW – I’m not trying to be a drama queen. After some meditation on the subject (and dozens of emails giving me shit for quitting) I stick with my point that the current format is not what I envisioned when I started Evil Speculator.

I only have myself to blame. In the past few months I have not given you guys everything I could to make you succeed. This whole blogging thing started to turn into a routine: Go bearish near the top – have fun – endure a relentless reversal – get stopped out. Meantime Geronimo was doing fine but I did a lousy job communicating that and also neglected my daily updates on the Zero. The tape was clearly wearing me out and I simply was not having fun here. Except for my futures strategies I barely traded and thus I did not have much to talk about.

In terms of the format I think it’s not productive that subscribers have to be secretive about what they are subscribed to – in the end paying subs are sitting in front of their trading apps and are unable to debate entries, signals, or exit strategies. This is counter productive as a lot of visitors here seem to appreciate the exchange of information and, let’s not fool ourselves, depend on trading blogs for emotional and intellectual support. The result of that was that despite me having produced several strategies that seemed to provide an edge the current format of this blog did not permit the dissemination and successful adoption of either of them.

When following the comment trail I realized how worn out and exhausted everyone had become and I started to blame myself. What was I doing wrong? Here I was pushing Geronimo, Rammstein, and the Zero but it seemed that a lot of you had lost confidence in what I had to offer. Maybe it’s because ES had acquired a bearish stigma in what is obviously a raging bullish correction (or worse – we shall see). But either way you turn it – folks were leaving and weren’t coming back. There were some hardcore readers who appreciated my inimical style but even they started to develop their own dynamic here and it didn’t feel like either I or at least my work was being part of their equation. Which in the end was the straw that broke the camel’s back.

Will I come back? I don’t know yet – but I can assure you that if I decide to continue this it will have to be different than what I’ve done in the past two years. Why? Because I know that I can do better – and what you’ve seen in the past few months is not me – I’m a lot better and bigger than this.

Many thanks to all the (mostly) nice posts and comments in the past two days. I am touched and deeply humbled by this and it has inspired me to give things more thought. But I stick with the fact that ES as you know it is dead and won’t come back.

Cheers,

Mole